013 [video; it was supposed to be private buuuut]

[miniworth]

[Forward dated to Monday morning.]

....Wright.

[The video turns on and shows that the boy is standing in a hotel room. The lights are on, and... it looks like the room was in use until just recently. The camera - held in trembling hands - captures the sulking figures of three Pokémon sitting on the messily made bed.]

---Wright.... he's gone.



[[ooc; -- With permission from our dear Gumshoe-mun, who dropped (SOB), Miles will be taking care of Missile from now on... but Gummy also had two other characters and y'all should ask Officer so the poor babes can have homes. ;A; ]

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[video] I WISH HE COULD BE LIKE THIS IN CANON thus my wibbleworth ;-;

[miniworth]

[He peers up at Misaki, his eyebrows furrowed.]

I don't want to.. make you talk about something that makes you sad, Misaki..

[video] At least as a kid he can be expected to speak his mind. *nods*

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

But I still think you should know. You've told me so many things about yourself and your problems, if you don't know at least that bit about me...

Well, at the same time, I don't want to burden you with anything, either.

[video] ...And be cute and fluffy while he's at it. \o/

[miniworth]

_{[[ ooc; BY THE WAY-- Usami has been posted /)__(\ ;; ]]}

....I'd like to know. [Lowering his sweater, he's looking down at his hands.]

You've... you've been really kind to me, and listened to me whenever I spoke about my father.

It made me happy, because I never had that back home. And I-- I want to be able to listen to you too, when you're sad, Misaki..

[video] Of course~ ♥

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

It's a sad story, so if you think you're up to it...



You remember that I told you I lost my parents when I was young too, right? I was eight years old at the time...

[video]

[miniworth]

[[ ooc; All right :3 ]]

[Miles.. knew about Misaki's parents, because the older boy had told him before. He remembered that, after his parents' death, Misaki was raised by his brother.

He nods, slowly, and stays silent, waiting for Misaki to continue.]

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

Well... my parents, they were out driving when the accident happened. And...

The reason they died was because of me. I killed them.

[video]

[miniworth]

[.................Sorry Misaki, but.. he doesn't yet know that your parents were speeding, or that they were coming home to you. So far his lawyer's-son senses are kicking in, and he sees an inconsistency in your logic.]

....What do you mean, Misaki?

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

I... I... I was a pretty selfish kid. I guess that's what happens when you have an older sibling that spoils you just as much as your parents...

.... I told them to come home. I wanted them to rush even though the weather was bad, and they... did.

[video]

[miniworth]

....So you think-- so you believe that you inadvertently caused their death. [He says that softly, just to make sure he's understanding Misaki's words correctly.]

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

No. I know it. They were always careful before, but that day...kgh!

[video]

[miniworth]

[A-awww Misaki, Miles hates seeing you like this. ;A;

He wants to be able to run to Misaki's room like he did after that Halloween fiasco, but alas -- there is a forever of travel between them.

So he's just... watching, with the saddest look on his face.]

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

[video]

[miniworth]

[Miles would never try to convince Misaki otherwise. It would be.. hypocritical, he feels. After all, even he hasn't gotten over the guilt of his own father's death.]

....I don't think there really will be an answer, Misaki.

[He pauses.]

I think the important thing is that... you don't let it take over you like I almost did.

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

It's so hard... Sometimes I think it would have been better if... if I had never been born. Then... then Nii-chan wouldn't have had to quit school, and our parents would be at home just like always...

[video]

[miniworth]

[Did you really think Miles wouldn't yell at you, too?]

That's the cowardly way to think, Misaki!

[Excuse him as his frown turns deeper and he glares. Miles himself had gone through some pretty bad moments of depression. Especially since coming to Johto; finding out about his future wasn't the easiest thing... and he sometimes wished there was an alternative. Turning back time, maybe he can save his father if he knew all this back then.

But he had never -- would never -- wonder about what would have happened if he wasn't born.]

Just because were born, Misaki, does not mean that your brother was fated to stop going to school, or that your parents were doomed to die. That's just stupid -- and I think you know that better than anyone!

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

Sorry. I'm kind of stupid and say dumb things like this sometimes. I think... I know I understand what you're saying. I'm just...

[video]

[miniworth]

Saying it's hard and wishing you hadn't been born is not going to do anything to bring back your parents, Misaki.

[Yeah he's just going to-- say some pretty mean things because oh boy Misaki. Miles has been through this conversation with himself before. He knows how you feel, and while he respects your right to be confused (because it was only meeting people from his future that forced him to stop looking back), he doesn't want you living the rest of your life like this either.]

What's in the past won't ever come back, and you can't change it. The only thing you can do... the only thing we can do is to move on and find a different way to atone for what we did.

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

Atone, huh?



... What are you going to do, Miles? You already know how your future turns out. Do you think knowing that you can change how you grow, and maybe better yourself in the process?

[video]

[miniworth]

.....No. I don't know, Misaki. It could turn out to to be worse.

But because I know that people are going to get killed because of me, I want to stop that -- and I'll do anything to stop that.

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

I think... as long as you have the friends that you do, you won't let that kind of stuff happen.

I'm sorry we ended up talking about my problems, Miles. I didn't mean to get you even more upset...

[video]

[miniworth]

....This conversation would have come up one day.

........I'm sorry I made you tell me, Misaki.. I didn't make this any easier for you..

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

No, I wanted to tell you at some point. I guess because... I feel that we've had sorta similar experiences. I've never run into someone that's felt the same way I feel...

[video]

[miniworth]

Well, that's a good thing, right?

I mean-- I don't want so many people having to go through something like this..

[video]

[usaginouke.livejournal.com]

Mnn. But it makes it hard to talk about with people who have lived... normal lives. People who grow up with their families, even ones that split apart, they can still see them so...

[video]

[miniworth]

....

[God, at that.... Miles just has to wonder what happens to his mother back home. She's always been a little on the sickly side; her medical care was one of the reasons why his father worked like a slave in the first place... and she never liked traveling. Would she even come with Miles to Germany..?

Miles had always known that his mother considered herself "Gregory's wife" more than she ever considered herself "Miles' mother", anyway. But she still loved him, and Miles... well, she was his mother. He missed her.]

.....I don't know. If we get split apart, whether they'll meet again probably depends...